In the middle of the night, i cry while staring at my family's picture. Grandpa show me the picture when we still in NewYork. Back then, everything seem to be perfect. With a smile on my face everyday. With mom cooking my favourite food and dad teaching me how to play piano and guitar. But things started to change when we live in singapore.

Hi dad. I try to say this infront of you when youre still alive. But i just scared that you might be mad if i say this. The truth is, you did change when we started to live in singapore. I know, i hurt your feelings many times and i swear i didnot mean it. You help me in everything. You help me not to give up easily. Never lost hope and be confident in everything that i did. Dad, im sorry for not giving you my respect towards you as a dad. But, i never wish to treat you like that. It's just that you never try to understand me. You expect me to be like how you wish me to be. You always dissapprove the things that i like. You never agreed with the things that i wanna be. You always love to compare me with first brother. I just cant be like him dad. Im not as clever as him. You beat me as much as you want. Have you ever thought of my feeling? Up till now i cant figure it out what make you change. But the past is the past. You are still the awesome dad. That's all for you dad.

Now, Hi mom. I miss you so much. I know, I've not been a good son to you. I always make you mad with the stuff i did. I still remember, every night you keep on advising me not to be influence with the people out there. But i failed to listen to you. I end up making you cry in the middle of the night. Making you stay awake just to make sure I'll be home safe and sound. You know me the best. You know how to irritate me and the most, you know how to make me laugh when i started to cry. You were there when dad wants to beat me. But after all those things that you did for me, i didn't even treasure you. I keep making the same old mistake despite the love that you gave me. I still remember the very first time i make you cry. The day when i get caught by doing that stupid stuff. I was to ashamed to look at you mom. You cry and it hurts me so much. I am so sorry mom. I really am. But whatever it is, you are the great mom that anyone can have it. Up till now, i still cant forgive myself for making you cry.

I miss you both. I'm sorry for all the things that i had done. In fact, i didn't even had a chance to seek for forgiveness. You guys just go without me knowing it. I just hope that you guys forgive all the mistake that i did towards you both.

With love, your son <3